RECAP...MOVING FORWARD...PROGRESS..FRUSTRATION

Hello dear Friends I'm sitting down here and writing this with a heavy heart, I'm frustrated is all with my health situation I need time , lots more time and many of you know me as go go go go lol . But alas I need to do whats best for me and my family and so I shall do that, the reason why its hard for me to come up with or make my old recipes is because I am very limited on what i can consume right now , and I'm now on the full gaps diet and still feel stifled and not at all having loads of options, I eat the same things every day here is a list of food 's I eat and I'm only using on occasional fresh herbs not very many dried herbs here is a list of foods I can have right now (I must say not being able to have COCONUT OIL , or coconut products is very very hard to come to terms with....I notice i can have a tiny small amount in my organic whipped earth balance)

*Organic Chicken
Natural Turkey
Natural Pork
Fish
Duck eggs
apples
Lemons & Limes
Sea salt
a small variety of fresh herbs
squash
sweet potatoes
Bragg's amino acids
organic rice -soaked
White Beans-Soaked
Celery
Carrots
Cabbage (regular and Chinese)
I have to Be very careful with garlic and onion's so I tend to avoid them.
Olive Oil
Organic gmo free corn oil
Raw Honey
Stevia
*Homemade stock *s
My Awesome Kimchi :)
My Sauerkraut

Duck Eggs

So you see baking you guys something is kinda out of the question , I still can have on occasion some of my cakes made with earth balance and my gluten free mix but that's just for special occasions....

I don't know if this makes any sense i feel like I'm letting everyone down and  myself down cuz I'm not writ ting and creating what i want...Do I need to change gears...and just plain write about my life journeys with some recipes thrown in as I can have more food choices? Yes you can see this is very hard for me , I absolutely love and adore food and its hates me lol hahah.

 No I know Im doing better than i have been before and I have lots of food choices than i did in the past, when i could only have Organic Turkey Broth. Praise God Im not back to that again!!!

I think I just need time lots of time.. most of you know I have Lupus/Sjolgrens Syndrome/ Over-active thyroid/Anemia Hemocromotosis and i have had one kid one after another.

Been told i would not be able to  have kids , had my firstborn (long hard, hard pregnancy) then I lost 6 precious children after that, then I was blessed with 3 more children (the second born , Jack was a very hard Pregency and I was told my NP and a speacialist in seattle to abort him and that we would both die if i didnt of i would just die anyway, of course i would never abort and My Jack is here with us and safe, then i had my two girls , Eleena (pregnancy was not so bad cuz i was able to take 5 mg of Preginizone helped keep her in andhelped me with pain and managing being pregnant better, and i did the same thing when I was pregnant right after with Gabriella.

My Beautiful gifts from God, Sean 7 1/2 , Jack almost 4 yrs old, Eleena 2 1/2 , Gabriella 8 months

I am not going to write my life story here , cuz then we would have an entire book. lol , but I did want to at least touch on this for those who do not know , I do feel like i need to explain myself and i know i dont but i still have a desire to help ppl. Mabey God wants me to switch gears and just write about my health journey and go from there.... I dotn want to loose or leave you all i so do love my blog and my facebook support page for my blog...I also Homeschool my kids and help my husband run our construction business so I feel so streched thin....
WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS? PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW , THE MORE FEEDBACK THE BETTER.  *Just keep it polite please :)

Thank you so much , JoAnna xooxo :D